Over the past couple of days I have felt a sense of unease. My subconscious is aware of it also -- I have been having weird dreams that left me waking up in a bad mood. As I tried to recognize the issue I thought about several matters, and after 2-3 days I've come to some replies.
Walk away from the crutches, even if its your best buddy
I am fortunate enough to have a great best friend in San Diego. However, it's important that you be aware of when you have to walk your path. Quite often, we lean on the shoulders of the others, and in the process, forget to learn that which we ought to learn how to do ourselves. By way of instance, I am constantly hanging out together with him, and we play video games. This really is great fun, but recently after our LA trip I have felt a sense of waste after playing matches. I uninstalled my Heroes of the Storm bnet account and I have a lot more spare time in my hands. So the lesson is, learn if you need to develop your own strength, and also have the courage to walk away from the very best friend. He/she will know, that you will need the time to yourself to create inner strength.
I have also learned that my day pick up skills are better, and that I have a tendency to do better on my own. From time to time, you need to go out there and see the world on your own, rather than resenting others for"holding back you", when in actuality, you're the one which's doing it!
Seeing the silver lining in all
As a child, I used to think that when I am studying the piano at the afternoon, all of the other children are out there playing at the golden sunset! No! I felt a sense of loss! Yet, nowadays, I'm grateful on a few nights when I can just be at work and function to my heart content. No family, no jak zagadać do dziewczyny w autobusie friends bugging nothing. Only me and my work. Sometimes I might feel like that is lonely and it is, but that is how it's for now, and I've learned to see it as a blessing, I get to hangout with my friends when I want to, and have my own time without being stressed by work or personal obligations.
Being trendy without"trying"
I've leverage the capability to be present thanks to Ekhart Tolle and I've noticed that when I'm relaxed and unstressed, I have a open vibe. People talk to me. "What is that you are purchasing?" I think that on weekdays, since so many individuals are worried, an unstressed, receptive energy translates well in contrast to all the pent up energy that we see everyday. I am fortunate enough to have financial freedom at this stage in my entire life, and I shall continue to channel a chill, open vibe, even though I am working hard at work.
Presence, and internal love
Being"chill" also means non-judgement. When we judge other people, in certain ways we're also dealing with our own demons. This is maybe one of the universal truths of all religions (that has been killed off by religious dogma). Your presence of light is sufficient -- that alone could sustain you and add love to the entire world. Sometimes our ego gets in the way, and we out of the flicker and magnificent of what's already there to begin with.
Strive for the finest, decision free of others
I used to judge others or"hate on them" when they are useless to my objectives. I understood now this is the incorrect way to look at the world. Everyone is in their journey. In a lot of ways, my negativity towards them was actually at myself at my own inability to make things function. I must have sought out help earlier, or recognized that I needed to meet new folks, rather than resenting my friends. You can't always change somebody, however you can always adore them.
It is ok to be an asshole, sometimes our mistakes instruct us the way to arrive at the right solution
In order for me to "find peace".
Or reach a point of approval, I needed to undergo pain. The pain makes it possible to get to a point (hopefully) of throwing away the bags of their ego.
Intimate relationships, enjoy all the life has to offer you.
While I used to select the hottest girls, I want the deepest relationships in every area of my own life. Am I still drawn to beautiful women? Absolutely. But my fascination now is more than only a physical one. I find myself losing attraction for superficial beauty, and much more in tune with inner beauty.
I'm still drawn sexually to shallow beauty, but in terms of my relationships as well as an-ongoing kind of scenario, I see myself valuing a gorgeous girl who has great inner qualities too.